Yesterday and again today. I very rarely cry.
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Yesterday and again today. I very rarely cry.
Last night during Muay Thai training because I hadn't washed my make up off and the sweat rolled it into my eye and my eye started to cry cos it stung :D
I just cried thinking about how I'm 27 and still unmarried/without a lover while many of my social media connections are an it's obvious it hurts my social standing. I also cried because I'm worried about getting on the older side and being viewed as less desirable for having kids with, but I admit I honestly do struggle to appeal sexually to guys. I am also really scared of what might happen when I graduate school after 30 and if people learn why I didn't complete school earlier, will they have a stigma against me? I hope not.
Well, I've wiped away tears from my left eye tonight (it's 3:19 am April 19th) and yesterday (April 18th) during my doctor's appointment. My doctor asked me why I was crying. I didn't know I had tears coming out. And I cried a few times this past week. I cried myself to sleep one night but I don't remember which night that was. I usually feel better after I've slept.
edit: It's a good thing I'm on anti-depressants.
another edit: I didn't say why. I'm lovesick.
But you have had lovers before, so you are not hopeless, right? :)
I believe that you will find love.
But if you do not, then you are hardly unique, more and more people are alone,
and (hopefully) learning to be happy and satisfy themselves in other ways.
Only about half of adults are married, and this percent is decreasing. Most kids are now born out of wedlock.
And those who are married are often unhappy, since half of them divorce.
Even those who stay together may not always be happy, despite the facade they create.
Your internal peace of mind, livelihood, and health (physical, mental, spiritual) are the most important things. :thumb001:
Love can appear when you least expect it, if you are open to it.
And don't worry about kids. Focus on more practical things for now.
You really don't need to convince others (or yourself) with external signs of success,
such as a house, a family, and a prestigious job.
Don't worry about this at all, no one cares.
Well that's a tough question. I have met people who I believe MAY have loved me, but things never materialized so I don't really count it tbh. But yes I do believe there are people who would love me. It's hard to get back up and believe that though because it seems like recently when I've tried to be the best person and be nice I just get tossed aside still or worse ghosted.
But yes I do realize marriage is not an entirely happy facade like it is portrayed at all. In fact maybe those who post about their relationship a lot on social media actually have a lot of problems with their spouse or lover that they hide.
I'll try not to :). I'm a bit worried about the possibility of needing in-vitro though, you can call me crazy for this though.
I actually strongly dislike the use of external things as a measure of success, as I really believe they shouldn't be and I personally do not value them in others at all. But still people on modern society unfortunately tend to the materialistic mindset.
Internal peace is definitely important I am trying to obtain that.
And if you say so :).
Anyways I'm sorry for all the posts with a negative connotation I've made, I hope it isn't bothersome.