Originally Posted by
Scarface F
Inspired by Laly comment....
My heart has decended into darkness. So much months have passed, and things have started to be forgotten.....but I caught myself sudden influx of nasty toughts today while drinking and smoking on the balcony after work....about man who, at least in my own personal interpretation, wronged me. Mistreated me.
I tought I let it go. Wished him "all the best". How dishonest that was.
In that moment, I felt range and embarassment and humiliation and most of all, mightyless.
Toughts came....fuck him! I will make him regret mistreating me! Revenge will be mine and I fucking want it!
I don't want him good life, I want him pain and all the worst. Now we are being really honest.
Probably I need a consultation with a priest, or a psychatrist. Or I can use inner rage to fuel my ambition to become best I can be and make him, at least for a moment, perhaps, one day, question.
Just venting, I don't need discussion about this, it's like inner diary, expelling demons that occupied my soul.
Or embracing them, to become something different. Maybe it's a journey towards a personal transformation.
Vent over.
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